Everything is Crumbling All At Once

Yesterday morning I didn’t want to get out of bed.

• I knew that I had a mostly full schedule of clients to see for therapy sessions.
• I knew that paying my rent depended on me seeing them.
• I knew that my dog needed to be let out before any of this could happen.

I added an extra 15 minutes on to the sleep timer and I rolled over, only to get right back up again, because that icky feeling had already started to wake me up. I let the dog out and sat to meditate. I had to tune in to the signal before anything else.

If you have been tuned in to awakened consciousness in the past few years, you’ve felt the difference. The environment became meaner. The voices got louder and more extreme. The arguments and explanations became less believable, even ridiculous. The news cycle became so obnoxiously violent, obtusely programmed to wrestle viewers into fear mode. The fight, flight, fawn, freeze cycle of experiencing trauma triggers evolved to be a default, all the time, for everyone.

Those who were not aware of awakened consciousness reacted to these conditions in peculiar ways. Some dialed themselves into the darkness, the hate, the violence, the oppression, the othering. Others became armchair commentators, calling the action like a sports competition on television. Play-by-play, analysis, commentary, complete with live interviews, produced on their mobile phones 24 x 7 x 365. Still others became activists (an honorable thing, don’t get me wrong), turning to the streets, shouting their disapproval, pushing back on the darkness, loudly, forcefully, with impact.

Some chose to become more sensitive. They handled the heat, not like frogs boiling in their bong water, but by tuning into the alternate signal. These individuals started learning meditation, started reading spiritual and philosophical books, started listening to aligned solfeggio frequencies and singing bowls, started chanting, started using crystals, started going out camping under the stars. These individuals doubled-down on ancient spiritual and metaphysical practices like reiki, yoga, shinshin-tōitsu-dō, qui gong, and tai chi, among others. These beings used the discomfort they were experiencing to tune into their inner alt-punk-revolution beliefs, transmuting them into something more mature, ancient, tribal, and resonant.

These beings chose to use the pain, to transmute it, and begin awakening…

What we are feeling right now is absolutely not normal, at least that’s what we are being told. From activists, to news anchors, from religious figures, to political leaders, from spiritualists to store clerks...everyone is observing the shift. It often comes across as a manifestation of mass anxiety and collective "What Tha FUCK?!” How we are processing it individually as connected beings, however, is a very different experience depending on the individual.

What we are experiencing is the crumbling of old structures of power. With this structural crumbling is an associated, adjacent, side car of thinning of the social structure. Rules, norms, customs, rituals, and orders, all intended to control the masses and keep them asleep, all seem to be wearing thin, sometimes in a confusing decay of social order like the human race has never previously experienced.

“Or has it? Is that true?”

The secrets being revealed to humanity at this challenging time run so deep that they force us to deeply question almost everything we think is real. The very fabric of space time is thinning, and the result is a blending of spiritual forces, astronomy, astrology, science, religion, alien technologies, replications, parallel dimensionality, crossing timelines, and an acceleration in revelations of information at a pace so intense that we humans barely can keep up. This is partially the result of the creation and rise of the Internet’s mature form. No longer are we sitting on chat forums just to connect with someone. Today we are connected all the time to millions of other beings, sharing our understandings, thoughts, feelings, and perspectives; all in a myopic lens of the self.

But is this really the first time this has happened? Is it really the first time that humanity has had this power? Or have we always had the ability to be connected this whole time, and we forgot how to use it? Are we simply experiencing a resurgence of this connectedness, forced by the changing global environment inflicting massive pain, dissonance, and suffering upon us? Are we in fact doing what we were meant to do, just beginning to wake up and realize how to rebuild the connection to this consciousness awareness?

I can’t speak for anyone else, but I know what I need to do to find out.

In the morning, before I do anything else for anyone else…

At night, before I go to bed and have another set of vivid lucid predictive beyond-the-veil dreams intended to teach me more lessons…

Any time I need to shift from feeling this discomfort into a grounded, centered, connected state of beingness…

I sit. I meditate. I connect to source.

I understand, even at a limited level, that the way I get through this is to sit, meditate, in silence, and connect to the signal. I understand that the more I do this, the more I strengthen the connection to it by tuning in to the frequencies. I understand that the more I use not only my pineal gland and crown and chakras, but indeed use every fiber of my entire beingness, energy, and physical body, to tune in, to practice this connection, the clearer the messages are transmitted. Eventually it becomes a multimodal conversation with source and billions of other conscious souls connected together.

This wasn’t ever intended to be an easy transition. This crumbling of everything around us is specifically intended to force us to wake up, to remember, to feel everything locally, galactically, universally, all at once.

And so I sit.